My mother posted on facebook that she’s now engaged.

She has been for a while, and it took ME calling HER to find out that she’s been engaged for while now and was too busy to tell me. 

She’s marrying a guy who is going to replace my Dad, and I’ve never even MET HIM. 

My family just made fun of how hurt and upset I am by it. 

I’m sitting here sobbing for over an hour and my best friend is too busy on the phone with my cousin to even call me. And Daniel just told me “It’s not my problem, don’t get me involved.”

Seriously?

I feel like I’ve been stabbed in the heart a thousand times. I’m trying to SO hard to understand, but I just.. can’t. I would never ever do that. If you needed me, damn straight I’d be there.

And the people I need the most don’t give a damn.  

I’m sorry I go through this kind of stuff.. I know I go through a lot of world wind things.. I understand if you want to run away and not deal with it.. I understand, and I guess thats what I’m trying to understand.. I’m so sorry..

I’m just so torn inside my heart, and I can’t decide what I’m more upset with. 

I haven’t felt this kind of heart break or anger before. I never ever have.